hmm..
there a lot to say...there a lot to feel...
now im still in front of Roger Sis laptop, since my laptop is upstairs and i am too lazy to go upstairs...
ive been planning to find job in kL...but not succeeded..there is a lot of opportunity and chance...but..im too choosy i guess...im thinking a lot about where am i going to live, how am i going to work and does my salary enough for me..all such stuff..since im living in kL..so the living cost should be high...my parents ask me to go back Sabah...but im thinking, this is the time for me to challenge my self living alone in this scary place...
i took such a very big decision in my life so i must continue it untill the very end...but maybe my fight isnt over yet...hence, i have to strenghten my energy, my mentality and my desire to live...i want to show everyone that i can live alone...
im handling a very big problem which is considering life and death...which is depending on how much money do i have...money is everything...i agree with this statement, since everthing related to me needs money..they say u dont need money to be happy...i say u do need money to make someone happy...to make ur family happy...to make other people happy..we now living in the world of where people are more happy to see their bank account producing money...
but, i also agree with the statement that money is not everthing...in my home...i mean, my real home, back in sabah...we dont need money to eat...because food are everywhere...im very lucky that my mom didnt teach to chose food, so i eat whatever that can be eaten..we have free rice from kampung...free house,water and electricity from the gov..plenty of vege around....the meat and fish are cheap...lucky im not so into fish and meat...because i prefer more to vege...and everything is quite easy...ony then, we still need money to move...to buy other things..but it does not stops us of being happy...i think that is one thing i love about staying at home...everthing is free...life necessity and love from my family...
now im staying in kL..those thing sare very rare to find...everthing needs money...plus, i need money to see my boyfriend...because we didnt live together for sure...and now...we both need money for our own problem...
there is stilla lot to say, but let me stops here...i know i havent been writte for long..but i think this will be my next favourite thing to do...
i pray that our problem will be settle in no ytime and evrything will go with the plan..i also pray that a big beg full of money will thrown to usd solve and solve our problem...i know what we decides is wrong but there is no way out...every mistake should be corrected...and i make sure that this wont happen again...
