It was on Thursday..its the longest hour of interview...and i have to go on different places in one day..doesnt mean that i never on the situation before( ive been even worse..!! ) but i have to rush and dont even have time for my precious lunch...
first ly, i was ask to go to the agency who manage my interview..i met a few candidate there, came to interview for the same postion...tele-marketer executive....it actually offer rm1.4k excluding allowances, commision and overtime...
its pretty challenging job, where i have a target costomer where i have to promote a certain product. but i kinda easy, where i only have to sit in the office and don't need to meet the customer...and i have normal working hours..so there is no shift hours..where i have to works at night..hee...plus thesalary was quite good for me as a beginner and fresh graduate...
The agency gives us some briefing about the interview that we about to go..i feel very nervous and blank when thay started to ask question..in english...its not i cannot answer the question but, i feel kinda blank and my confidence level tottaly down when i see all these candidate who come..
After the briefing, i only have 30 minutes to go from ampang park to kl sentral...i have to take the train, change train at masjid jamek and continue my journey to kl snetral..i suppose to go with one of the candidate, but i have waited until i missed to train, but she still not showing up..so i tought she must have been to the early train when i was in the toilet, so i just continue my journey..when i reach kl sentral, i have to ask people where is the sooka center, i lost a few times...
So , when i reach Quill 7..( the place that i suppose to interview )..i was late 2 minutes..thank God that the interviewer was not ready that time,so i can take my breath..i saw many candidates come with potential..some of them had work previously and of course they had the experience..and me..?
i went through the interview, nicely , smooth and funny so that the interviewer will remeber me...i hope so..but it always be me...ive tried my very best to get this job,.people may say its hard, pressuring but still i want to know how pressure it is..hehe...come on challenge me...let see ho far i can go in marketing industry..
Now im waiting for the call..but it doenst stop me for go browsing other job..i have this offer in HSBC bank, but i have to work on shift, so i didnt go...
and i also got interview from jobstreet itself..maybe i will try this one..this monday...
Hope i get one of the job..im tired of waiting..God,help me..
Astro did provide a lot of graet movies, entertainment, and news...but for me..BORING..!!
Ive been watching ASTRO and the shows were great...but, its too boring for me..ive change channel many times, and all i see was the same shown yesterday and the day before...
i suppose to go interview for work..but im have to stay home..(padahal malas..)im waiting for 'kak' to come back from Singapore..and then they will be gone again for America maybe on 28th or 29th this month...so maybe they will ask me to stay at their house again or maybe not..i really want to say no..but i still dont have any jobs so why dont i stay for a while...?plus, i can go interview and still stay here...but so much money will be wasted..i can get free foods since they provide everything...
i dont which decision to choose but i will do something...
and im sorry that the title has nothing to do with what im saying..im just too bored..!!
Dear Dearie...
Today is my first day living alone (not so alone...ada c opey kn) in this banglo...quite scary..hehe..with unknown gardener..hehe...nasib lengkap ni rumah...everything is available..y tiada cuma kwn bercakap...c opey tu bukan faham pa kita cakap..
Plan...
1) Beli barang di Giant...beras,milo,tisu kotak,telur,sayur,sos tiram,ayam untuk c opey,maggi kari and maggi korean..( ada list suda ni..tggl beli ja..hrap2 ckup la rm200)
2) Masak masakan resepi "Ikut Selera Ku"..xtaw pa mo masak lg, tp harap x masin betul la nnt..
3) Ka-ra-O-ke..!! tunggu sampai xda orang yang rasa2nya dengar..lepas tu baru nyanyi sepuas hati...hehe...
4) Movie timee..!! banyak muvie ni belum abis tengok...tp xmo la yang scary + tembak-tembak + bloody hell punya crita...aiyoo...x ngam d jiwa..
5) emm...interview..?? Pegi la..Tomorrow got one...tapi baju kurung suma di tempat c Tata...how am i suppose to go..?huhu...Pray for me ya...
6) apa lgi...Kasi mandi c Opey..hmm...pesanan kak, 'lepas ko kasi mandi, kasi hair dryer tu bulu nya..syampoo and sabun nya ada aku letak di luar..ari sabtu la ko kasi mandi..' aiyoo...anjing pun mo ada syampoo and sabun sendiri..( tringat anjing d ruma, kena air pun lari ..yang ini mo kasi mandi lagi...')
7) ada lg y aku lupa ka?rasa nya teda suda....
so that's it...harap suma selesai sblm kak balik...susa la lau dia pulng suda...
hmm....
hmm..
there a lot to say...there a lot to feel...
now im still in front of Roger Sis laptop, since my laptop is upstairs and i am too lazy to go upstairs...
ive been planning to find job in kL...but not succeeded..there is a lot of opportunity and chance...but..im too choosy i guess...im thinking a lot about where am i going to live, how am i going to work and does my salary enough for me..all such stuff..since im living in kL..so the living cost should be high...my parents ask me to go back Sabah...but im thinking, this is the time for me to challenge my self living alone in this scary place...
i took such a very big decision in my life so i must continue it untill the very end...but maybe my fight isnt over yet...hence, i have to strenghten my energy, my mentality and my desire to live...i want to show everyone that i can live alone...
im handling a very big problem which is considering life and death...which is depending on how much money do i have...money is everything...i agree with this statement, since everthing related to me needs money..they say u dont need money to be happy...i say u do need money to make someone happy...to make ur family happy...to make other people happy..we now living in the world of where people are more happy to see their bank account producing money...
but, i also agree with the statement that money is not everthing...in my home...i mean, my real home, back in sabah...we dont need money to eat...because food are everywhere...im very lucky that my mom didnt teach to chose food, so i eat whatever that can be eaten..we have free rice from kampung...free house,water and electricity from the gov..plenty of vege around....the meat and fish are cheap...lucky im not so into fish and meat...because i prefer more to vege...and everything is quite easy...ony then, we still need money to move...to buy other things..but it does not stops us of being happy...i think that is one thing i love about staying at home...everthing is free...life necessity and love from my family...
now im staying in kL..those thing sare very rare to find...everthing needs money...plus, i need money to see my boyfriend...because we didnt live together for sure...and now...we both need money for our own problem...
there is stilla lot to say, but let me stops here...i know i havent been writte for long..but i think this will be my next favourite thing to do...
i pray that our problem will be settle in no ytime and evrything will go with the plan..i also pray that a big beg full of money will thrown to usd solve and solve our problem...i know what we decides is wrong but there is no way out...every mistake should be corrected...and i make sure that this wont happen again...

The title looks kinda scary for me..but its true....this coming 29April - 9May will be the last exam for me..( i hope so..!!)
But, the very truth is...Im not ready ..even for a single bit...my test's were sucks!! and i know my carry marks will the worse ever...pdhal mau habis diploma suda ni...
I dont want to spend another sem here in segamat...oh gosh...cita-cita tinggi ..tp usaha nya teda...
I have thinking solution for my problem...
First, im will ask some of my fren to teach me back before exam...maybe i eill take a few days..but i hope i still can make it...i know some of them will share their knowledge with me...
Second, i will stdy hard and smart...i dont know how to do it...but i know i can do it...ceh..!!!
Next, no on9..!!..yes, i can live without internet...tp, kalau kegataln betul suda p library la tu...walau pun x dpt fb..blog pn boleh lah...because my bf will be using my laptop for his final project...so, ada juga alasan la kunun...even tho' i can bring his mini laptop..tp sapa juga yang pndai guna Linux punya OS..x syok la...
Next, pray....Oh Loving God...Please help me through all this tempatation you set for me..May you Grant me with your Love and bless me with your Hand..may you also bless my roomates and my frens in this final exam season...Deliver us away from evil and bring us to success...Amen.
Last but i hope not least...ready for anything..ready if have to spend another sem in UiTM Segamat..ready if i can't answer question...and ready if i have to work after diploma...ive been thinking a lot and i stilll dont have the conclusion...so i think im gonna let what God want me to be...just like before....
That's the end of my story today...
For all due respect, i apologize for what i am going to write will hurt others feeling...
Keadaan ini sudah lama berlaku di kampus saya dan ianya amat pedih di dengar...apa yang berlaku adalah, apabila "tempat beribadat' disini mengambil alih semua aktiviti wajib kampus. Bukannya saya bermaksud untuk meburuk-burukkan "tempat beribadat' tersebut..malah saya sendiri tidak gemar apabila gereja saya sendiri d maki2..namun, kekesalan di hati saya amat payah untuk d salurkan ke pihak yang sepatut nya...yang saya mampu ialah bercakap tentang ketidakpuashatian saya. tetapi tidak mampu berbuat apa-apa..
Saya merupakan pelajar tahun akhir di kampus ini dan telah banyak perubahan yang saya lihat berlaku dalam kampus ini..saya bukan lah seorang yang aktif dalam kampus dan bukan juga golangan anugerah dekan...tetapi , yang saya pasti saya juga mempunyai hak bersuara untuk mengekspresikan ketidakpuashatian dalam diri saya...
Berbalik kepada isu 'tempat beribadat'...bukan 'tempat beribadat' itu yang bersalah ..tetapi mungkin 'mereka' yang menjalankan tugas tidak berfikir secara rasional dan meletakkan"kawasan beribadat' tersebut mangsa keadaan.Pada pendapat saya, Masjid, Tokong, kuil mahupun tempat2 yang sudah terang2 kita ketahui merupakan tempat kita beribadat...dimana kita akan berkamunikasi secara emosi , mental, batin mahupun zahir kita kepada Tuhan.Jadi, saya amat menghoramti keadaan ini...Saya pasti semua orang tidak mahu bangunan ibadat mereka tidak dihormati oleh agama lain...apatah lagi kita yang hidup majmuk di Malaysia ini..
Namun, apa yang membuat saya hilang rasa hormat ialah apabila "tempat beribadat' di kampus ini telah dijadikan seolah2 menggantikan fungsi 5 buah Dewan sedia ada... hampir semua akiviti wajib universiti dijalankan di dalam "tempat beribadat' tersebut..malah aktiviti seperti ceramah kenegeraan..modul bahagian, ceramah ilmu,latihan dikir barat dan banyak lagi aktiviti yang tidak berkaitan dengan agama turut dijalankan di dalam "tempat beribadat' tersebut..Keadaan ini sememang nya baik di lihat apabila semua pelajar akan mengunjungi "tempat beribadat' tersebut memandangkan semua aktiviti wajib universiti di jalankan dsitu..
Namun, adakah keadaan ini bersesuaian dengan semua pelajar..Mungkin pihak pengurusan 'terlupa' bahawa kampus ini juga menawarkan tempat bagi yang bukan beragama Islam, dan hal ini menyukarkan kami untuk membuat keputusan. Sekiranya mungkin, ceramah yang dijalankan ada berkaitan dengan agama, saya berpendapat, peljar yang bukan muslim patut di kecualikan mengikuti aktiviti tersebut.Ini bagi mengelakkan kekeliruan dan salah faham berlaku. Dan, bagi pendapat saya juga, pihak pengurusan harus lah peka terhadapa jenis aktiviti serta pengisian dalam aktiviti agar sesuai dengan semua pelajar. Sekiranya aktiviti wajib tersebut tidak berkaitan dengan isu agama, maka, adalah lebih sesuai sekiranya aktivii tersebut di jalankan di dalam dewan yang saya jangka amat selesa dan bersesuian dengan aktiviti tersebut meskipun tidak lah sesejuk "tempat beribadat' yang menurut pendengaran saya telah d pasang 20 penghawa dingin bagi menarik perhatian pelajar untuk datanag ke masjid..ini satu kaedah yang amat baik dan saya pasti semakin ramai yang mengujungi nya..( selepas ini saya cadangkan pihak penurusan agara meletakkan lebih banyak penghawa dingin di dalam kelas bagi menarik minat peljar datang kelas )..tetapi, kaedah menjadikan semua aktiviti dijalankan di dalam masjid adalah kurang rasional kerana kaedah ini tidak mengambil kira siswa yang bukan bergama islam..
Saya berharap pihak2 yang bertanggungjawab mengambil kira keadaan ini agar dapat memudahkan pelajar mengikuti aktiviti yang dijalankan.
Yang penting kalau berusa gigi tu, jangan lupa berus di lidah juga...at east kurang la sikit bau mulut kan...kalau buat flossing hari2 lagi bagus..







